Trying Today: I will succeed

For Today’s Poetics, I want you all to think along the lines of Peer Pressure.

How does it make you feel? What are your views on it? Slice it, dice it, pepper it with everything that you have got and write a new poem.
From d’Verse Poet’s Pub: https://dversepoets.com/2022/06/21/poetics-when-it-comes-to-peer-pressure/

It may not appear that I think you are right
or that I am wrong at any old time
It’s just that I feel your presence hanging around
Why do you get to me? Why do I bend?
I know your influences are not in my interest
yet I don’t know what this will give you.
Do you wish to see me fail?
Do you wish to prove a point?
Is it my curiosity to see what will happen in the end?
I live each day, knowing who cares for me
and who doesn’t
and yet I look for your call
your interference
your input
despite
the misery it all brings.

I’m told to move on
I’m told that you are poison
But the pain of loss is stronger
The questions louder
The answers nonexistent

Today I will live without thoughts of you
and what you don’t like about me
and all that I do.
Today I will live without hearing your negativity
enveloping the being I am.
Today I will make the effort to put the past behind
To realize the present isn’t what I had wished for
But that I am better off without you.