Sadness…

Today is one year since my son died. I will repost a poem I wrote at the beginning of the month because it says it all.

My heart will never be full again, always a piece missing.

I love you, my baby Joe

81 thoughts on “Sadness…

      1. My husband lost his daughter, right after we got married. She was 20. I see his pain, but I don’t know what it truly feels like inside. I am so sorry for your loss. I surely does not seem right at all.

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    1. Thank you so much. Joey never minded me calling him Baby Joe even at 19 years old. I can’t believe I will never see him again, well until I am there with him. I just pray that what they say is true about heaven and people being reunited.

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      1. I pray for that, hope you find happiness and comfort in someway soon🙏Two losses in such short time is very hard. Can’t imagine. More strength to you ❤️I could feel the pain in the previous poem too “I am still here” sending virtual hugs and love your way

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      1. I’m happy you got my hugs! I can’t imagine the pain of losing a child. You never forget and your heart keeps aching. Did you write about it in your blog?
        I’m not sure if you have stopped by my blog, but that’s one of my biggest fears. My daughter was born with HLHS and each time she gets sick, my heart drops and I get beside myself. Sorry, I didn’t want to talk about my story, but I wanted to share how I may understand a tiny bit of your pain.
        Wishing you a peace filled weekend…

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      2. Please stop by and talk about your situation any time you need to. I have a part of my blog that goes on the line of grief but I also didn’t want that to represent me. I try to remember my daughter is here and she deserves me being a good mom, like I used to when I had two kids here.

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      3. Thank you for your comment! I was thinking about your post yesterday when my daughter’s face had a bit of swelling, which means fluid buildup in her lungs. I turned white from fear. She’s ok, but little health hiccups scare me.
        I understand what you mean about sharing your grief on your blog. It’s a big part of you but not all of you. Wise choice. You need to be present for your daughter who needs you too. She experienced a big loss too in losing a sibling.

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      4. That is for sure. It seems like taking the selfish route and giving in to my grief would be a lot easier, it isn’t me though. I will pray your daughter stays as healthy as possible. Children shouldn’t have to be in any pain of any kind.

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      5. Inspiring attitude. You can’t make your life revolve around grieving although you miss your son. You’d miss out so much.
        Thank you for your prayer! I never realized how many children are sick at hospitals until my daughter came along. It’s an eye opener and you feel for all the kid patients and their families. But it’s amazing to see the level of resilience these children have.

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      1. Yes acceptance is important but very hard. I lost my mother at a young age and I’m still trying to accept it. Not that I’m trying to say I understand because grief is very personal and I don’t know if one person can truly understand another’s grief. I wish you all the strength and hope that I can find.

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      2. Thank you. I lost my mom when I was 23. My daughter is 22 now and having lost her dad I sort of check on her remembering how I felt back then. I agree that no loss feels the same but sometimes just the idea of sharing the understanding means quite a bit.

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    1. Thank you so much and thank you for stopping by. Funny thing, my therapist asked me the other day to think about what I would say to this self in five years from now. I don’t know if that makes sense but it is a way to look at survival through this hellish nightmare.

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      1. GOD Willing-(Insha Allah ) you will. I lost a child in the third month.Almost died. But I dream of him..(Doctors told me he was a boy) he came to me in a vision , all smiling, just the face. Then I was at peace. I love your writing-and Blog Its beautiful.

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    1. Thank you so much. I have found that talking about it really helps. It is hard because the people around me care, but their lives have kept going whereas mine has kindof stopped. I appreciate your kindness.

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  1. The one year mark is so very hard. It’s the day we realize we are able to survive the pain, when we thought, just one year ago, that we could not. It’s been 18 months since I lost my daughter. I’d like to tell you the second year is less painful. So far, not so much. It seems I simply get better at managing life despite the hole in my heart. I wish for you strength when the days are the darkest.

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    1. Thank you. Believe it or not I am just beginning to let myself be truly sad for the loss. I think you would know what I mean. It is so real and so harsh that it seems unreal for so long….Thank you for connecting and understanding.

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  2. My heart goes out to you and the tragic loss of your beloved husband and son.
    Wishing you the inner strength to travel one day at a time and may each day bring simple joys and kind words to lift and comfort you.

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  3. Your sadness and deep grief at the loss of your dear son as well as your husband are completely understandable Christine, and I pray that you will be able to move on and not remain stuck in your grief, as I know your son and husband would want for you. These times of loss are opportunities to grow stronger in character and break through the sadness. My heart weeps with you, and I pray peace and new beginnings for you:
    https://aussiebirder.com/christine/

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