What do you see? #5

For a guy 

As I sit, I wonder why 
I let my life go for a guy. 
I look at love and do not see 
A man who wants to comfort me. 
I must move on in my own space 
Thinking not of time nor place 
Of meeting with the next man there 
For my relations I don’t care.  

As I sit, I look around 
I wonder where I can be found. 
Hidden here in a secret gloom 
I left him in the hotel room.  
I ran so fast I could not see 
The rain nor fog that followed me. 
So now I’m here in a new, fresh day 
Wishing my love and his could stay.