Twenty-two years ago I was blessed with a baby boy. He was beautiful with a full head of dark hair weighing 9lbs 8.5oz. He left the hospital a few days later at 10 pounds!
I miss my baby more than anything…
The Joseph Bialczak Excellence in Mathematics Scholarship
To be awarded yearly at Three Rivers Middle College Magnet School in Norwich, CT
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I have not had my usual presence on WordPress, as I am accustomed to and happy with. I have so much going on that my head spins constantly and I am trying to hold on for dear life so I don’t fall off this ride called life!
Back in February my stepmother passed away. It was quite sudden. I didn’t realize that the day she passed was the day my life would change, once again! I could go through all of my tragedies but I won’t. If you are curious, check out my About page. Anyhow, I am now the full-time caregiver for my father who suffers from Alzheimer’s. I knew this day would come but I didn’t think it would come so fast.
My fiance, David, and daughter live 1200 miles away from me. My daughter is doing phenomenally well in her career. She is working for Momentum Solar and is a natural when it comes to sales. My fiance is working his job, taking care of my house and my dog and my guinea pigs. I am busy too! But it is more of a mentally busy thing than physical.
Yes, you read that last paragraph correctly…David proposed and I said yes! We don’t have a date set yet but I am hoping my father will be well enough to walk me down the aisle for the second time.
There is a lot that I miss, now that my life is so….different. Besides missing David and Lindsay, there is so much more….
I miss my dog. I miss making my miniatures at my work station at my house. I miss my comfy bed. I miss my medical marijuana. I miss my alone time. I miss writing every day. I miss blogging all the time. I miss chatting with people and reading about people’s experiences. I miss taking pictures of birds. I miss all the things that were so familiar!
But I am lucky to have as much as I do. I am lucky that my father thinks I am so wonderful! I am lucky I have a roof over my head and food on my table. I am lucky to log on to my blog and see that people are still reading my posts and following me and enjoying my writing.
Life is so strange. I sometimes wonder, “when will life be normal?”, but what is normal? Maybe this life, with all of its chaos is normal! I just wonder if there is ever a time in life where you can just sit back and really just enjoy the world around you without feeling like your head is going to spin right off your neck!
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If you haven’t already seen it, I have a Go Fund Me page for a scholarship I would like to present to the school my son graduated high school from right before he passed away. I want his name to be called out each spring as his school presents two scholarships to students who excel in math. That was his passion. If you could share the page that would be great. It is a large sum of money, so that the scholarship can be sustained for years and years. The more people who see it, the better my chances of reaching my goal will be. If everyone who saw it donated even $5, I would reach and possibly exceed the goal I have set. All money will go to the school for scholarships under my son’s name. If it isn’t enough, then perhaps it will only be a few years of scholarships. If it exceeds what is needed to start a scholarship then perhaps it can be offered to more students that attend his former high school. Thank you ahead of time for sharing the link!
The greatest favor anyone can do is spread this worldwide so my son’s legacy may live on!
Today I was looking at blogs that had a lot of puppies and dogs. It made me really remember how wonderful my little guy is.
He is my protector and watches over me all day and night. When I lost my husband he stayed with me constantly to make sure I was okay. When I lost my son, he never left my sight. To this day, whether I am happy and laughing, sad and crying, or just plain busy, Brody is next to me, staring at me, making sure I am okay!
The next video is sort of loud at the beginning because of my crinkling of the bag but the highlight is how cute Brody is enjoying his carrots. He really does think they are “lip-smackin’ good”!
Finally, this is my guy just keeping an eye on things.
Brody will be six years old in March. It’s funny. I have always had big dogs, so this little guy is a pip-squeak next to them. All 49 pounds of him! He is my little lap dog!
©2020 CBialczak
Today is the day that I married Bob, 24 years ago. He isn’t here to celebrate this anniversary but I know he is with me. I also believe that he sent David for me, to love me and take care of me like he did, since he is gone. A bittersweet memory of such a beautiful day.
Separated my suns, moons, and seas
Forever bonded by love and memories
Love will always be in my heart
For our time together
©2020 CBialczak Poetry
I am thankful for what I have been given, then, now, and always….
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Is cereal soup? Why or why not? Cereal is not soup because it never becomes a new thing when you pour the milk in, it is still cereal with milk. On the other hand, when you put broth, chicken, veggies, and spices together it makes soup. You wouldn’t really say “I’m going to have some chicken and veggies with some broth”.
What are some interesting ways to answer everyday questions like “how’s it going” or “what do you do”? How’s it going?: How is what going?
What do you do?: When?
What was your favorite toy growing up? My favorite toy growing up was my Holly Hobby Treehouse and my Little People House. The tree house was a cardboard sort of gazebo that all the sides came down to have different “areas”. There was the picnic area where you could put all the little foods. Then there was the swing area that actually had a swing attached.
My Little People House was awesome and I guess I would include the other buildings I had, like the castle. I loved that there were trap doors and secret hiding spots.
If you have a pet, and you could ask it three questions, what would you ask? I would ask my dog – 1. Don’t you get tired of laying around all day doing nothing? 2. Is that kibble really tasty and do the different “flavors” really taste different? 3. Does the slime out in the dirty water bowl outside that has filled with rainwater add to the taste of the water, since you would rather drink that than clean water from the tap.
I would ask my guinea pigs – 1. If you had a choice how long would you let your teeth get? 2. Does it gross you out a little to know that your teeth grow? 3. Do you see me as an evil giant even though you know me and I feed you or do you recognize me and just run away for the fun of it?
Attitude of Gratitude Section (Always Optional)
What’s one simple thing society at large could do to improve our world? Accept everyone despite their differences.
©2020 CBialczak
Gratitude
I have so many things to be thankful and grateful for.
I am very grateful to my family and friends who understand that this time of year, a few days before Joey’s Heavenly birthday, that this time of year is so very hard.
I have experienced so much loss, as many people do. I lost my last grandparent sometime around ten years old. I lost my mother when I was 23. I lost four dogs, 2 cats, some guinea pigs, some chickens….That list could go on and on. I lost my husband in 2018. I lost my son in 2019. I lost one of my closest friends last month.
I have also experienced so many joys like weddings, new babies, and wonderful holidays. Actually, a new baby came yesterday! If you didn’t see my post from yesterday, it was my mom’s 76th Heavenly Birthday. But, with the birth of Calvin Emilio! Congratulations Sarah and Kurtis!!
The hardest thing in my life that I have had to endure as of yet is losing my son. There are no words to explain.
But despite this pain, I have so many people who support me and show me how much I still have. I have friends who remember Joey that will talk to me about him. I have contact with a few of his closest friends. So, today I am grateful for the people who love me and care about me.
©2020 CBialczak
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