Today I woke up so grateful for yesterday and the decisions I made.
First of all, the political game is over, here in the US, which makes me really happy. I am tired of the back and forth. Second, I decided to wait on becoming an Uber driver until I actually have to money to invest in it. Third, I brought David to one of the landmarks of my childhood, Chaffinch Island State Park, in Guilford, CT. I have been wanting to bring him there for so long because he loves the ocean. When we first met, one of our days together we spent out in Narragansett seeing the different beaches.
So, they may not seem like big things but it just made me so happy yesterday and I was grateful for the way I woke up still so happy about it.
I have so many things to be thankful and grateful for.
I am very grateful to my family and friends who understand that this time of year, a few days before Joey’s Heavenly birthday, that this time of year is so very hard.
I have experienced so much loss, as many people do. I lost my last grandparent sometime around ten years old. I lost my mother when I was 23. I lost four dogs, 2 cats, some guinea pigs, some chickens….That list could go on and on. I lost my husband in 2018. I lost my son in 2019. I lost one of my closest friends last month.
I have also experienced so many joys like weddings, new babies, and wonderful holidays. Actually, a new baby came yesterday! If you didn’t see my post from yesterday, it was my mom’s 76th Heavenly Birthday. But, with the birth of Calvin Emilio! Congratulations Sarah and Kurtis!!
The hardest thing in my life that I have had to endure as of yet is losing my son. There are no words to explain.
But despite this pain, I have so many people who support me and show me how much I still have. I have friends who remember Joey that will talk to me about him. I have contact with a few of his closest friends. So, today I am grateful for the people who love me and care about me.
I picked Gratitude to write about for the month on November. I missed a few days but life goes on…
On this day, 11/05/2020, I am thankful that I had such a good, caring, loving mother and that I can remember her and see some of the pictures from her life. She passed away in December of 1994 so it has been quite a long time. I don’t remember everything but I can pick out moments and remember her, what she said, etc. I can’t really remember her voice. Everyone loved my mom. She did so many things (must be where I get it from!). She reupholstered furniture, sewed everything from Halloween costumes to prom dresses to stuffed Christmas trees for the holidays. She used to make these really neat ornaments out of egg shells. My cousin still has a few. She would somehow take just a little oval of the shell off and clean out the shell. Then she would put a little scene inside the shell (guess maybe that is where I get my mini-stuff fascination). Next she would dip the outer side of the entire shell in glitter. Finally she would put a little piece of decorative ribbon around the hole in the shell so it was almost like a little picture window.
Not everyone is lucky enough to have a wonderful, talented, loving mother like I did. I wish everyone did! I was very fortunate, and for that I am very grateful!
I haven’t yet decided what I would like to write about every day for the next 27 days…I think it will be on gratitude…I started late which I am hoping is still legally binding…if not, then it is my attempt! Sometimes I don’t think I stop and think about all of the things I am grateful for amidst life’s challenges day to day.
On this day, 11/3/2020, I am so grateful for my daughter and my boyfriend. Lindsay and David have been my rocks. Lindsay is an amazing young woman and yes, we’ve had our ups and downs, but we have come back to a place where I can honestly say my daughter is my best friend. David came into my life almost exactly two years ago and although some people viewed it as premature, it has lasted and he is my other half. Both David and Lindsay have been next to me for the hardest time in my life. There couldn’t have been anyone I could have asked for besides them. They keep me grounded and remind me how much I have to live for. I’m not sure where I would be today without them. I suppose life works that way and if we were to turn back time so many things right now, even the really good things, may not be here. So, today, along with every other day of my life, I am so grateful for Lindsay, my best friend, my twin, my daughter, my perfect daughter and for David, the kindest, most caring, thoughtful, loving, and perfect companion whom I love so very much.