My first instinct is to write “the past” because there are so many things I am missing so much, like my son, my mom, my late husband, etc. But then I think, no, I always think about “the future” because I am excited for all the things I will be being, both as an individual, but also with David. We have the same desire to travel and see different places, even though he has been around the world a bunch of times when he was in the Navy.
I think about the future and what it will be like when my father is not here anymore. As many of you know it is bittersweet because he is still here and I see him often, however, with the Alzheimers he doesn’t know me anymore and doesn’t remember anything from the past. Besides this part of it, I have been his guardian now for over 4 years and I am constantly thinking of things he needs or even what he is doing and feeling. It is a lot of responsibility, although I am so thankful for the staff at his facility, they are amazing!
I think about life in a few years because I want to move back to a part of the country that has normal grass and trees, hills, shade!, maybe even a few mountains. Although FL has its perks with the sunshine and warm weather, it is also tiring with the constant high heat, dead plants, and sweat! Some day…
Peace to you all!
Stine Writing 